Yeah... I'm doing a total self makeover. & Not just like clothes and hair and makeup, but also money smarts, and eating habits, and personailty change. Well, I mean, let's be honest, my personality is fucking awesome. I am just going to try to be a little nicer sometimes. I tend to be a little bitchy and stand-offish sometimes, and I know this. Occasionally, it is needed, but I'm going to try to filter the unnecessary bitchyness.
Current Improvement Attempts:
I want to go on a bike ride but my bike is all up high hanging in my garage, plus the tires are probably hella flat. So I'll prob just end up walking/jogging with my pups. I'm going to go tanning.
I've already applied at like 23847239209 salons... have an interview on Monday the 3rd. At 9:30 am. In Park Ridge. http://anasasalon.com/ I was supposed to have Tara do my hair that day as well, but I have literally no money to live off of for 2 weeks and I'm going to Bloomington-Normal this upcoming Thursday to celebrate a friend's 21st and to watch one of my bff's graduate! Congrats Alissa!
I really need to save some money for the Florida Keys... which is like... exactly 37 days away. I think another clean of the closet/visit to Plato's closet may have to be in order. What else can I sell... my soul? Oh wait, I can't so that cuz that would def be the opposite of improvement.
I have to pay about $450 to the Rzepecki's for the plane ticket. & I still have to pay off a few grands worth of my personal debt eventually (and at least $107 worth a month or I'm pretty sure they are going to find and kill me).. plus I have about $18 in debt with my Target card.
so... Anyone need their hair done????? $15 for cut $35+ for color??!?!?! WILL DO HAIR FOR MONEY.
I'm so stressed! Thanks a lot red7, you suck ass cuz you made my life suck balls!
shit, life is hard.
Friday, April 30, 2010
wow
wow.
when can I catch a break?
I didn't know I sucked this bad.
hahaha. buhuh.
[note] this post really should be dated 4/13/10 as that is the day it all went down the shitter.
when can I catch a break?
I didn't know I sucked this bad.
hahaha. buhuh.
[note] this post really should be dated 4/13/10 as that is the day it all went down the shitter.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
It Starts.
Today was the first day of my life.
I am newly hired to a top salon. HECKS YESS!
I am going to be an AMAZING hairstylist.
I am going to start working out REGULARLY.
hopefully one day get a gym membership. (I want to truely GTL, ya know?)
go tanning. (tanning membership...)
get like a day planner or something.
get an apartment.
Have my own awesome life.
I am going to do it this time guys.
I am going to be better.
successful. you'll all be jealous. ha.
I am newly hired to a top salon. HECKS YESS!
I am going to be an AMAZING hairstylist.
I am going to start working out REGULARLY.
hopefully one day get a gym membership. (I want to truely GTL, ya know?)
go tanning. (tanning membership...)
get like a day planner or something.
get an apartment.
Have my own awesome life.
I am going to do it this time guys.
I am going to be better.
successful. you'll all be jealous. ha.
Friday, February 26, 2010
The 2010 Olympics.
How do thems athletes do it?!
I get nervous and tired just watching the Olympics.
Speed skating tonight was intense. Apollo - I am proud of you.
Men's figure skating was good. Evan - you deserved it.
Women's skiing. Lindsey - pretty good considering your 942309420398 injuries.
Snowboarding was awesome. Shaun - I want to marry you.
(not like these winners will ever read this.. haha)
How did they do it? They started out just like everyone else, small children who could hardly spell their names correctly and struggled to 'color inside the lines'. One day, they decided; "I'm going to be great at this. I'm going to give it all I have, and I'm going to succeed, and I'm going to win."
I envy them.
~~~
I got the technical interview at an amazing salon.
I just need to find two people to be my hair models for two haircuts I have to perform. Then, I have to do it well. Then, I will find out if I get this incredibly good opportunity. Then, I have to correctly tell them about a vacation I have already planned on going on in June. Then, if I get the job, I have to be AMAZING. They have made it clear they will not accept any kind of let downs. I have to set every alarm in my house to get wherever on time, and be awesome.
Like Apollo, I have to skate the perfect race in order to get on the podium.
Nervous? nah.
I'm terrified.
I get nervous and tired just watching the Olympics.
Speed skating tonight was intense. Apollo - I am proud of you.
Men's figure skating was good. Evan - you deserved it.
Women's skiing. Lindsey - pretty good considering your 942309420398 injuries.
Snowboarding was awesome. Shaun - I want to marry you.
(not like these winners will ever read this.. haha)
How did they do it? They started out just like everyone else, small children who could hardly spell their names correctly and struggled to 'color inside the lines'. One day, they decided; "I'm going to be great at this. I'm going to give it all I have, and I'm going to succeed, and I'm going to win."
I envy them.
~~~
I got the technical interview at an amazing salon.
I just need to find two people to be my hair models for two haircuts I have to perform. Then, I have to do it well. Then, I will find out if I get this incredibly good opportunity. Then, I have to correctly tell them about a vacation I have already planned on going on in June. Then, if I get the job, I have to be AMAZING. They have made it clear they will not accept any kind of let downs. I have to set every alarm in my house to get wherever on time, and be awesome.
Like Apollo, I have to skate the perfect race in order to get on the podium.
Nervous? nah.
I'm terrified.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
why am i always arriving here?
right now, my heart is pounding.
its the kind of pounding when you feel when you are really nervous. or when you are about to cry but you just dont have enough emotional energy left in you to produce the tears. even though you know it will feel so good to shed them.
i don't know why.
ok, i do. i am freaked out. about how things are right now, how i want them to be soon, and how i am going to cope when they don't turn out how i hope.
i miss my friends. an unspeakable amount. i miss all of them. even the ones that i dont talk to all the time.
mostly though, i miss the ones that we could literally just pile onto a couch, or in someones room and talk. and we could go on a walk and a large stick or a bike missing a bike seat would be hilarious.
i miss the freedom to be up at 2 am, and someone else happens to be awake, and we decide to go for a walk. or a drive.
i miss going out, and something random happens, and that happening is turned into an inside joke for your close group of friends.
when was the last time an inside joke happened?
i feel like i'm missing out. why does it always have to be me? why cant it ever be easy for me?
i know a lot of this sounds like whining. and it is. but my heart aches, my whole body aches. especially at night. when the things i used to do at the same time a year, two years ago, take over my mind, and all i can do is miss how happy i used to be. when even then, i wasnt happy. but i was happier than i am now.
i need this job. i'm trying not to put all my hopes in getting it, but i know i will. even if i dont show it, i know not getting this job will crush me. i love what i do. i think i'm pretty decent at it.
i wish life happened like it did on tv or in the movies.
i want someone to say to themselves "yeah, we could use a girl like her." potential employers.
or anyone really.
i cant do this much longer.
its the kind of pounding when you feel when you are really nervous. or when you are about to cry but you just dont have enough emotional energy left in you to produce the tears. even though you know it will feel so good to shed them.
i don't know why.
ok, i do. i am freaked out. about how things are right now, how i want them to be soon, and how i am going to cope when they don't turn out how i hope.
i miss my friends. an unspeakable amount. i miss all of them. even the ones that i dont talk to all the time.
mostly though, i miss the ones that we could literally just pile onto a couch, or in someones room and talk. and we could go on a walk and a large stick or a bike missing a bike seat would be hilarious.
i miss the freedom to be up at 2 am, and someone else happens to be awake, and we decide to go for a walk. or a drive.
i miss going out, and something random happens, and that happening is turned into an inside joke for your close group of friends.
when was the last time an inside joke happened?
i feel like i'm missing out. why does it always have to be me? why cant it ever be easy for me?
i know a lot of this sounds like whining. and it is. but my heart aches, my whole body aches. especially at night. when the things i used to do at the same time a year, two years ago, take over my mind, and all i can do is miss how happy i used to be. when even then, i wasnt happy. but i was happier than i am now.
i need this job. i'm trying not to put all my hopes in getting it, but i know i will. even if i dont show it, i know not getting this job will crush me. i love what i do. i think i'm pretty decent at it.
i wish life happened like it did on tv or in the movies.
i want someone to say to themselves "yeah, we could use a girl like her." potential employers.
or anyone really.
i cant do this much longer.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
nevermind
aaaaand... short lasting.
yup. thats right kids. out on the job market again! and at such a good time too!
life is hilarious.
i need a vacation.
fuck.
yup. thats right kids. out on the job market again! and at such a good time too!
life is hilarious.
i need a vacation.
fuck.
Monday, August 3, 2009
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